Tuesday, July 6, 2010

courage

i sat in class while d director taught... well spoke wud b a better way to say it... he sed things which were amusin... also sumtyms unheard of.... n most of d tyms insulting.... bt unfortunately... d ppl wid d big big egos also don stand a chance in front of dis guy... he's jus too much for ppl to handle...

during d first class.... i actually thot it wud b fun.. bt nw i feel he's right.... he's been paid nt to teach.. or lecture... or even b d director... he's paid to show us d path.... he does not realise... he is showin d path on a no moon day..... wid no street lights...

i admire his knowledge... im proud to knw dat such an amazingly experienced faculty is teaching us... bt im ashamed of myself n my colleagues dat we cant stand upto him in class... its nt dta i wanna pick a fight wid him.... its jus dat... if u want to learn sumthin frm me... u hv to b open to discussions... sum sort of interaction... sumthin... n for a fact no1 will stand upto him even if dey hav a very intellectual doubt.... coz wen a person has a doubt... silly or intellectual... it always seems to be inconsequential....

its nt jus abt d class as a forum for discussion... its abt... jumpin to conclusions.... i don understand... hw such an old man can do soo much jumpin.... i mean... so much exercise... nt very gud at dis age... i mean... cant he jus ask in a manner dat every faculty asks... he says he's a faculty wen in class... n only outside a director... so wen in class cant he stop feelin like d director... can he make a mov from his side to make us feel comfortable while atleast communicatin wid him in class..... i don ask for too much... i don wanna bcum his buddy n give him a five wen i see him in corridors... i jus want to loose d fear....

n guess wt... my fear is such dat while i type dis... in d bak of my head im thinkin.. wt if... he gets a hold of dis blog... or wt if.... d other faculty members see it... n talk abt it to everyone.... im even thinkin of selectin d whole thing n pressin d delete button....

but i wont....

coz dis d only place whr im nt judged.. n wteva i do... is coz i wanna do it...

i here i really wanna post dis feelin of absolutely no courage wid a lil courage!!

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