well i cud bear dat.... bt den after d classs it was all d more boring.... i was free .... free until after lunch.... which i was to have wid Sesh.... well neway... while i was passin my time till lunch... dis guy.... a complete jerk if i may say so... K walked in... sat right beside me... started talkin to me.... sumtimes.. callin me his sister and sumtimes.... jus tryin to ask if i had a boyfriend... and if i was willin to make him my "special" friend...... i hardly understood wt he spoke.... atleast dis is wt i understood....
den came lunch.... lunch wid Sesh... never happened.... he had to go meet sum friend at d other end of d campus.... bt luckily or unluckily i met AD, spoke t him for a while.... den he gt busy.... den came B... welll its nt like i speak to him soo much.. it felt awkward.... jus d both of sittin.... tryin to make a conversation.... i swear if i were seein all dis from far off i wud understand dat d 2 ppl sittin on the table together are perfect strangers... welll dats hw it was.... weird....
well dat too passed away quite fast.... nd den it was tym to step into d class..... i actually enjoy dis class.. nt only bcoz i enjoy AD's company and constant chatterin bt also bcoz it makes a lot more sense than anyother classs... well today was extra special as i had t giv a presentation on a case study based o trade unions.... unfortunately... i had to giv it in 2 parts... n thus my second part felt too disconnected and it felt like i repeated myself a zillion times....
once d class was done.... i wantd to rush out of coll as i had plans.... plans dat included I....
i tried to get out sooner bt... instead gt stuck in an auto wher 4 ppl were crammed int d back seat.... it was unbearable.... i cudnt feel my knees.... i think i still cant feel dem.... finally reaached to whr d car was parked.... gt in... msgd I.... sooonn she was in d car n soonnerr we were in inorbit....
while i entered inorbit.... i reaalised hw my mind was concentratin on jus 1 thing... a bag.... a bag dta i cud take to coll.... as welll as use as a purse ... if i ever wanted to carrry one... all through d time dat we lukd at stuff i concentrated only on a bag... I, however looked at everything.... including bags for me....
soon we were hungry.... n i realised i was fastin today... bt i decided... instead of goin bak home n eating i wud jus eat ther.... so we ate.... cheked out another store..... finalised on two bags.... and while i decided we also had an ice cream.... between which i gt a call ..... a call frm mom....
a call frm mom.... jus ruined d "almost turnin out to be a good day".... she jus sed....
"do u really wanna spend sooo much? is it worth it?
i jus hung up....
i din wanna argue..... i knew it wud gt nowhr....
i gt a call agn ..... it was mom agn..... dis tym she sed
"see, buy if u wanna.... u neways want one.... dont u??"
i hung up agn.... dis tym wid a firm answer ..... "I DON WANNA BUY NETHIN"
gt out of d place asap.... dropped I... close to home.... n gt hme....
i knew she wud b mad dat i ate.... bt dat was nt d only thing she was mad about.... she was mad about y i dint buy d bag.... n y i wantd to buy a bag dat expensive...???
i don understand..... do i spend soo much.... on a daily basis dat shez askin me nt to buy.... she knows for me..... spendin is equal to investin..... i always look for d highest possible return...
im so mad at mom.... i mean y giv me money wen u don want me to spend a penny frm it....
wt if i was nt like d way im....
wt if i was a spendthrift....
wt if i was buying stuff dat i neva used....
wt if i jus spent money wid d drop of d hat....
wt if i were jus like other girls......
i hate it... i follow rules... i do as she says.... n still i gt a mood upsettin remark frm her always....
wt if i decide to b "nt so gud"???
wt if??......
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